I left my family and friends behind in 2014 to persue a career as a train driver. I did extremely well to get a guards job at just age 18. Unfortunately being young, inexperienced and alone in London has rather taken its role on me. I could have been a driver four years ago today if I hadn’t failed the assessment the first time. I put the failure down to stresses outside of work - I wasn’t really in the best mind space. Unfortunately things haven’t improved and I still don’t feel ready to attempt the assessment again. I’m now at the point where I don’t know if I’m suffering from a lack of confidence or a phobia of complete failure. I lose a lot of sleep over it, even have nightmares about doing the assessment and any conversation about the drivers role plunges me into a deep sadness. I’ve been living with this in silence for a long time now, I think however it’s time I dis something about it.
I’m coming to the forum today to seek out suitable advise from other people who may have been in a similar situation or worse, who managed to pull through it and succeed. Such a story would probably boost my morale. At the moment I feel incapable of passing the assessment because I’m defective but perhaps it’s a state of mind that I can overcome. I just don’t know.
I’m coming to the forum today to seek out suitable advise from other people who may have been in a similar situation or worse, who managed to pull through it and succeed. Such a story would probably boost my morale. At the moment I feel incapable of passing the assessment because I’m defective but perhaps it’s a state of mind that I can overcome. I just don’t know.