altruisticdumb
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I know I'm an as****e I understand what I did was very very wrong. I'm an asylum seeker, female, 21. I've been using my brother's zip card 11-15 for a few months for travelling and today an officer stopped me when I was travelling from Brixton to Queens Park. I panicked all of a sudden and said this is my card and this me. Ofcourse they knew I was lying and then I lied again that I'm 16 and then I had to tell the truth showed my ID, gave my address everything. It was by mistake that I told her I was traveling from West Croydon to Queens Park because West Croydon is my local station and in between the panic, anxiety and losing my mind I just uttered West Croydon. I thought I was just getting fined, I 'd beg someone at the community and pay the fine. I swear I didn't know it was a severe crime and you could get persecuted for that. The officer said they aren't arresting me but they were supposed to. I honestly did not know that. I could not say anything to her. I literally had no money to pay for my fare that I had to use that card. I promise to never do that from now on. I'm looking for a job, I'm trying to be a better person. I wish I didn't have to come to this country, not having a home, not having access to education, I wish I didn't have to quit my bachelor degree. If I had that today, I wouldn't be begging for travel fares. I do not want to go to court anymore, I just get anxiety attacks I just want to run away from this life. Now, I understand why drugs are so common in this country. Sorry, I know this isn't a place to rant. First of all, the officer said I'd be contacted by TFL by letter I think so. I would have to tell my parents that another disaster has happened. Secondly, I do not want to go to court but other posts on this forum says that TFL is very strict. Will I get prison sentence? Can this happen without going to court? Will I have to seek legal advice? Will I have to hire a lawyer? Thirdly, how much time does it take for them to reach you? How much longer can I keep this from my parents? Fourthly, Can TFL in any circumstances not offer concession in fines if we stay out of court? How would I pay even if that happens. I regret regret and regret doing this so much. It won't affect my brother right? Can it affect my or my parent's case? Will I never be able to get a job now?