I'm somewhat similar. Compared to last summer, when I was looking forward to getting back to doing all sorts of things I'd normally do, I don't seem to have much enthusiasm at all now. I've no particular desire to emerge back into a world full of aggressive signs, endless announcements, one-way systems and masks. (I was on a GA train a couple of days ago and after every station there were 4 (!) rather aggressive automated announcements - about social distancing, masks, abandoned luggage and needing to buy a ticket. Add one before each station telling people not to congregate around the doors - and I was being wittered at for most of the journey. Worse than being on the Victoria Line!)
Also I've no desire to meet up with friends or colleagues until they've got past the stage where all they want to discuss are the events of the past year, and who knows how long that will take? I've no particular drive to return to the office either anymore, for the same reasons, which is a big contrast to last Autumn when I was actually rather attracted to the idea (although it never actually happened).
I also strongly suspect I'm very much not going to like the world we are going to have from now on. I was already disheartened by the general direction of travel over the last few years, and all those things that I thought were going wrong have been accelerated by the events of the last year. That makes it hard to have much enthusiasm for the coming months and years. I don't see that we can get back to the world of 2019 anymore, and deeply problematic as that was, I think it was a lot better than what we're going to get going forwards.
All that said, I still see the bigger picture, and will still argue strongly for the anti-lockdown cause and for personal freedom, because I still totally believe them to be the right approach.