Joe20365
Train driving, especially when learning, and in the first year or so after passing out, is very mentally draining. Shift work is very physically draining, certainly to start with, and the truth is that even after years of it there will be times when you suffer 'shift-lag' - like jet lag but without the glamour!
You are tired mate. And tiredness makes you grumpy, irritable and more susceptible to 'feeling low'. Being anxious that you might be trapped in a job is a normal fear, but when you haven't seen daylight/your kids all week, then it can really get to you.
When I started train driving I was single and so I wasn't being away from anyone when I was at work - I do find it more difficult now I have a family. Although... There are times it works really well - I've been able to attend assemblies at my stepdaughter's school, which I wouldn't've been able to working 9-5.
I've seen some lovely sunrises, and there's no way on Earth I would've voluntarily got up early enough to have seen them!
Is it 'boring'? Or is it 'steady'? Think about that. It can be either, but it depends on your frame of mind as to how you view your work.
MDD (Depot Driving) - my first couple of years driving, I used to do driving on the depot as overtime (covering part of a night turn) after afternoon jobs. I loved it! More sociable -not the hours, but more people to talk to than stuck in the cab on the mainline, shunters, other drivers, depot supervisors...
Some people swap for nights, there's usually less work in the diagrams and you see your family in the evening and at breakfast time and sleep whilst they are at work and school. Perhaps you'll like nights?
Some Minder Drivers are better than others. Some are enthusiastic and chatty, some are moody on mornings, some hate the company, and some are chatty when you are tired and not chatty!
Lots of factors to consider.
My advice is to stick it out. When you are out on your own you will be able to settle into your roster, and swap shifts if you want to. You won't have someone looking over your shoulder all the time, and as time goes on you won't find it as mentally draining as you'll get used to the job.
If you do decide that you really don't like the job and jack it in, then at least you have it a go. No one knows whether they will like a job (or a new company or depot even) until they try it.